The Original Twisted Spinster - Mothers day lament.

 I should be cleaning, I should be washing the woodwork in the house, i should be cleaning the doggy nose smears off the windows, I should clean the guest bathroom, i should be doing laundry but it nevert made it downstairs last night, i should mow the lawn, i should do dishes, i should wash my hair, i should clean out the truck, i should clean up the garage, i should paint the porch railings, i should restain the deck, i should be washing the egg spot off the house and prime, i should be scraping the side of the garage priming and painting it, i should still be sleeping, ( been up since 4;30 damn loud birds). I should shampoo my sons carpet, i should clean my desk, i should take the excess toys upstairs i asked hubby to take care of last night. i should recaulk the kitchen sink, i should recaulk the tub and bath sink upstairs and in the guest bath, i should fix the toilet paper holder and towel ring in the guest bath.

Last night I did finish painting the front porch floor and steps. take out garbage. I did plant 2 pots and the front lamp post garden. 

All little things the house not only needs as far as maint ,but also to spruce it up a bit if we try and sell it in June.

I am really tired of being the ONLY one who cleans and does handyman stuff around here. It's all i do everyday. Clean and fix and try and entertain my 5 yr old. It's old. It wouldnt be so bad if i had company/help doing it. Makes it go faster and more fun i think. I dont mind having a nice neat well kept house. I know it takes elbow grease. I like doing fix it things. I dont mind painting. I do mind being the only one who does these things, alone, everytime, with no "wow honey, that's so much better. Basicly no aknowledgement, help or support in trying to keep up the home fires.

I place thier crap on the stairs so when ever someone walks up them they can take and armfull... NOOOOOOOOOOOOO step over it and knock it over all day long. The crap sits there for a week and gets full of dog hair. I kid you not. I've done a test and stacked it 3-4 steps deep. Amazing how long legs can stretch.

Can he not even throw the wrapper of the damn popcorn bags away and his empty MT Dew bottles? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! The trash can is 4 feet from the counter! Can he not keep MY car, MY company car, MY gift from the business/serverance pay , owned free and clear, clean just out of respect? 2 large kitchen bags of trash is what i hauled out of it last week. its a small car! My son just lets trash lay on the floor cause dad walks right past it and leaves his own bits all over. It's a fight to get my son to put his plate on the counter cause dad just leaves his laying around. My son leaves ice cream wrappers etc. on the floor. Just blatantly drops them on the floor. Tosses juice boxes... on the floor. I have coats, hats and a belt on my kitchen table. Oh and a pair of small socks. ITS A KITCHEN TABLE FOR GODS SAKE! Not a dresser! You have to pass the coat hooks in the back hall to enter the kitchen and place your coat on the table. CRUMBS! OMG the crumbs left on the stove and kitchen counter when fixing food aside from the unused food LEFT on the counter and not put away. Ok people leave dirty dishes sometimes all day on the counter, but leave the onions, lettus, meat, mayo bread etc on the counter HOURS after you made your sandwitch?

Why would a child want to or know how to be helpful or have basic sanitary maint if a parent doesnt set an example?

LAZY!

I am a maid.

I've got my own shit to deal with. My own wants and needs aside from being keeper of  "your person". 

I am loved.. but i really want 50/50 on keeping things running! I get more than 100% love. Hubby is kind and gentle. But right now it isnt enough.

I'm banging my head against testicles i think and not in any form of fun recreational way either. Just plain old big, dumb, lazy, taken for granted maleness.

10-13 hours of sleep is NOT healthy dude! Yes you work 14 hour days 3 on 3 off then 4 on 3 off. But i work 24 hours a day 7 days a week!

yes im still sick too and i am painting, cleaning cooking and still caring and educating our child! cant you help? I do this all the time, many mothers do.

I dont care if you dont  "FEEL like it or dont want to, or your tired. I feel the same way 90% of the time but i still plug along, as does the rest of the world! GET OFF YOUR ASS!

I'm so sick of shootem up, kung foo, spy movies. How about a good drama or mystery? And no i dont like pizza never have! I dont want chicken wings or chips. 

I want salads, i want grilled fish or chicken with roasted veg. starch and carbs are evil! It's why we are fat! I am not cooking for either of you anymore. I am on strike. its time to eat properly. I dont care if you dont like cold pasta salads and think fruit is NOT a dinner item or desert. Pizza is NOT a breakfast food and veggies do have to have dirt washed off them. They do not come in a can! Meat is not pre cooked in a plastic pan with plastic wrap and a carboard box around it. it is raw and bloody!  Fish is not breaded, it has scales! Breads do not stick to the roof of your mouth and last 3 weeks on the counter on humid summer days!

You both will eat what i do and if you dont like it, go hungry or make your own. Eventually, like the dog or cat that is refusing it's new food, you will get hungry enough and eat it.

If this keeps up, i will be scratching my balls spitting and shaving in no time. I am being asimulated! Jabba the hut is trying to take over my body and my home. Like the pod people!

Look out, more SHIT is coming into the house tonight, whether you like it or not. My MOMS shit! Deal with it. Before i forget, thank you for taking me to Dad's today so i can help him clear out moms belongings.

I am lonely. I miss mom. I am NOT at peace or settled right now. I want to cry but i dont have time or energy.  I am BLAH! I am afraid my future will be as my mom in law. SHE does dad's blood work 3 times a day FOR him. She cleans and prick his finger and gives him his shots. He just sit in his lazy male chair with a blanket over his legs watching golf and CNN and sleeps. Is this my future? I wont do it.

Mothers.. you ruin your children if you clean their room and put away their laundry when they are in elementary school You ruin them if you do not give them daily chores. You are NOT helping by labeling their dresser drawers when they are 16 so they know where YOU put their clothing. Stop making their beds when they are in high school!

You destroy your children if you do not show them that they MUST take care of themselves and complete tasks and that there are terrible things out there, worse that a time out for not following through or following rules.

Stop coddling.  Stop being PC. Time for old fashion "granny laws" when raising children.

* bang bang bang * <-- my head on a brick wall.....