The Original Twisted Spinster - *sigh* life......

Physical today MRI tomorrow. Ick...... Still slightly dizzy/heady. The meds for the nausea are working. I can eat!.  Seems I've lost 9 lbs in 2 weeks. A bit fast for me when i diet. Oh well.  I'll take it. It's not like I am going to miss it!!!!

Being sick sucks, ( wait rephrase that) being incapacitated sucks. But the idea of some answers coming with in the week are a good thing. I dont feel sick, i dont feel "diseased", I dont feel like i have a "condition", Im just dizzy with constant annoying ear ringing which i have actually learned to live with. I would really like to get on with my life.
causes: Menieres disease- treatable
               Tumor malignant -if it was deadly i would have been dead years ago since ive had this for about 6 years. 
               Doc has ruled out this one
               Tumor benign- possibility very treatable partially shaved head.  "giggle"
               Calcification of a part of the inner ear-treatable common with those people who produce kidney stones
               ie:  me
               Neck injury- already know i have a herniated neck vertebra- Surgery, well it was going to have to happen
               sooner or later in my life

All have the same symptoms, ear ringing, dizzy, heady full feeling, nausea, speech issues, loss of hearing, inability to focus, bouts of depression, light sensitive and sharp noise sensative, car sick, height issues.

Ever notice how i trip over some words and cant really spit them out properly? have i ever asked you to repeat yourself a few times? I just always though my tongue was dyslexic. I know a few of you have mentioned how loudly i speak sometimes.

How do you apply for a job when you have to say "i have a ton of medical tests over the next 2 weeks for a condition that will effect my work, so i cant work on such and such a day, or i need a few hours off every other day"? This could be overwhelmingly depressing... however i am choosing to not let this bring me down anymore than i already am. I'm rather fed up with drama and depression. I have made a choice to be cheerful all week and I have been. It seems to be working because i am not freaking about everything. I am helpless over many situations in my life and i must keep moving forward for my son and my hubby.

I tell yah, I have the greatest man in the world. He is being so patient and tender and loving. He is trying very hard and being very helpful. I think he is kind of scared about my health. Nevertheless, I have an awesome hubby!